Mar. 14th, 2016 | 06:21 pm
I got up early this morning, meditated for 20 minutes and then went running. Feeling proud of myself for actually doing the things that I always tell myself I should be doing but never actually do.
German class tonight. I missed the last class due to food poisoning. Ole who sits next to me tells me that was a poor excuse, suffering from food poisoning is actually the perfect condition to attend German class in. God he cracks me up.
Mar. 9th, 2016 | 10:53 pm
Learned about infrared saunas today, and I'm totally facinated. A little spa near where I live has one, I'm going to check it out after work on Friday. I wonder if there will be dudes there. I bet there will. It's normal to trot around naked in spas here, men and women together. I find it kind of liberating, kind of awkward. Freikörperkultur, woo hoo!
Mar. 7th, 2016 | 11:43 am
I'm looking forward to exercising, running, riding my bike to work again.
I've been reading Werner Herzog's book, 'Vom Gehen Im Eis' in the original German. When I don't know a word I write it down and make a flash card so I can learn it. So now I have an entire deck of flash cards with words like, "düster (gloomy)", "Weltzusammenbruch (world collapse)", "Unding (absurdity)" and "Finsterling (sinister character)". The book is fantastic, by the way, I highly recommend it. There's an English translation available as well, entitled "Of Walking in Ice".
Mar. 2nd, 2016 | 02:51 pm
Just some bullets on some things.
• I'm on day 6 of a 10 day cleansing fast/detox thing. I can't believe I haven't eaten food since last Thursday! It's kind of insane. I'm feeling good though, which is something I didn't expect. I thought this would be much more difficult, but I haven't felt hungry or crappy at all. I'm drinking tons of juice as well as taking some psyllium fibre stirred into the juice from time to time throughout the day. Even though it hasn't been particularly difficult, I am massively looking forward to Monday when I get to start eating food again.
• I'm taking German classes in the evenings twice a week. So far I've made it to every single class for over a month. Sure, I can speak German at this point, but I really want to improve.
• I bought some nice clothes for myself recently, some non-H&M clothes. I am trying to make an effort to get away from having a ton of cheap clothes that fall apart quickly, to having fewer things which last longer and are of better quality.
Feb. 4th, 2016 | 11:24 am
Nov. 10th, 2015 | 10:43 am
Yesterday I booked a flight to Zürich so I can see my friend's art show next Friday at the gallery that is potentially interested in my work. Woo hoo! The only part that sucks is that to get the cheap flight I had to book the 6:20am one... so I'll have to get up at 3am that morning. I used to take this flight when I had to occassionally travel to Zürich for work; it's do-able but also brutal. C'est la vie
Nov. 3rd, 2015 | 02:40 pm
The man's face is based on the death mask of Frederick the Great.
Tomorrow a woman is stopping by for a studio visit and to interview me about my work. Which means I will need to spend every moment this evening cleaning in preparation.......
Oct. 7th, 2015 | 09:57 pm
In other news, my passport arrived in the mail today!
Oct. 6th, 2015 | 01:12 pm
Three weeks ago I learned that I needed to renew my passport prior to my trip. It was a complete shock and hit me like a ton of bricks – I had not been aware that a US passport is considered invalid 90 days prior to its expiration date.
So I sent my documents off immediately to start the renewal process, which takes exactly three weeks. So there is a chance that I may get my passport back in time, and there is a chance that I may not. I don't know. I don't have a tracking number and no one answers the phone at the US consolate, it's just a long loop of fuck you. All I can do is hope is that I receive my new passport with enough of a window of time to make my flight.
And if not, I thankfully had the foresight to purchase flight insurance when I bought the ticket, which will – I hope – help to buffer the costs and BS of needing to move my flight to another day.
Normally I would be happy and excited to be going on a big trip, but at this point I just feel stressed and worried. I try to stay positive but it's not easy, especially given the frustrating conversations I've been having with my mother over Skype. I wonder to myself, how am I going to get through this? Deep emersion within the dysfunctional.
Sep. 25th, 2015 | 05:52 pm
Saturday evening I'm going to check out the Kreuzburg Pavillon show – always a treat – and the line-up of artists looks great.
On Sunday I'm meeting up with another friend to go search the forests surrounding Berlin for edible mushrooms. A couple years ago when we did this we found some enourmous parasol mushrooms in the Grunewald, so hopefully this year we will be successful as well. That is also the day of the September Harvest/Super-Moon lunar eclipse, so the perfect day for an autumn forest romp.
Sep. 9th, 2015 | 05:37 pm
I finally broke down and purchased The Elder Scrolls Online... the cold weather hibernation season will be here soon and I intend to entertain myself via adventures within the elaborate landscapes of digital fantasy and roll playing.
I re-arranged the furniture in my home and I think the feng shui is much better. I hadn't even noticed there was a problem, but swapping the locations of my bed and the sofa has made a world of difference.
Sep. 4th, 2015 | 02:45 pm
I'm going to a party/event Saturday night called 'The Magus'. There's a decent line-up of DJs and performance artists, and the dress code is 'SX Magic'. I have something I'd like to wear in mind, hopefully it will come together decently. Need to pick up white face paint on the way home this evening.
I am finally able to comfortably wear all the clothes I bought for myself earlier this summer! YAY
Good bye fat pants
Aug. 28th, 2015 | 11:28 am
I found a pet sitter for Rasputin for while I am on holiday in the States. She's coming over to my place on Sunday to meet him and get the low-down on what will be required. Which won't really be much, he's not an especially needy bird. Given a large pan of food and a large pan of clean water he will happily go about his business and daily tasks (building intricate nests with found materials, long-winded conferences with the bird in the mirror, executing complicated dances with his shadow on the wall, etc.). The pet sitter's duties will mainly be to make sure the food pan continues to have food in it and the water in the water pan is fresh and clean. I plan to paper the the floor so cleaning up droppings won't be a massive pain in the ass when I get back (he doesn't normally have accidents on the furniture, so that's not a problem). It makes me feel better knowing that someone who is a vetted pet sitter is looking in on my bird at regular intervals, letting him know he's not forgotten.
Aug. 27th, 2015 | 11:44 am
I'm meeting up with C after work at a riverside restaurant for dinner, which I'm looking forward to. Hopefully it won't be so inclement that we have to be inside, I'd really like to sit outside along the water.
This morning as I scrammbled to get myself out the door I suddenly decided that I absolutely must wear a specifically pair of lace-up boots. Unfortunately that particular pair of boots had a split sole, so in order to get them in wear-able condition I found it necessary to go nuts with superglue. In the process got it all over myself and the floor, which seems to be what always happens when I try to use superglue, I never learn. Fortunately I also got some in the desired places and was able to fix the boots, but I now have fingers coated with dried superglue, which is a singularly unpleasant feeling. Trying to not think about how toxic it probably is.
Aug. 26th, 2015 | 11:40 am
Got a full night of sleep and then upon waking immediately got up and meditated for 15 minutes. That's as long as I could go before my mind started making to do lists, filling up with randome chatter, etc. I'm going to try to make it a habit to use the time between waking and getting up for meditation – you know, the 20 min or so that one just lies there thinking 'I don't want to get up'.
Something I've noticed a couple times as I've been walking through the city is men with their pants tucked loosely into their socks such that the pants poof out, reminicent of a 1920s sporting look. Interesting.
Aug. 25th, 2015 | 10:34 am
I bought a bunch of new clothes for myself shortly before I put on all this weight, which of course no longer fit, so I'm stuck wearing old rags until I can slim down. It's a pretty good motivator. I can't bear the thought of going out and buying a second set of new clothes that are bigger, it feels too wasteful.
I've been walking to work again which hasn't been easy for my legs to get used to as it's 55 minutes each way, but it will get easier as I continue to do it. Today was an exception and I took the train due to an important investor meeting taking place here at the office, necessitating the 9:00am arrival of all employees, nicely dressed. I remembered this with only 30 minutes to get here so walking was out of the question. I dressed as nicely as I could given my limited wardrobe ability and actually got here on time.
I went to bed last night at 9:30pm and got the most amazing sleep ever – 100% sleep quality, according to my SleepCycle app. The little graph makes me so happy after months and months of sub-par sleep.
I've been struggling with trying to come up with subject matter to paint. Or rather, what to paint on a small scale. This is a challenge I've given myself as I believe it would be good for me to have a number of strong small scale pieces (around 50cm x 50cm) which could be easily shipped and shown. So I've had to think about and approach everything differently. Frustrating.
Aug. 21st, 2015 | 10:13 am
Some no-rice sushi ideas I'd like to try
I told a friend I would go to a roof-top networking party this evening but I have no real desire to go. I hate it when I agree to things I'm not really interested in doing, as if I have all the time in the world.
My sleep has improved about 25% since quitting coffee, the 'Sleep Cycle' graphs show a drammatic improvement. I've always known that I'm hyper-sensitive to caffeine (and once had a reaction so bad I was rushed off to the emergency room – from drinking a cup of strong TEA), so I guess it doesn't come as too big a shock that I can't even have a seriously watered-down cup of coffee first thing in the morning without it seriously disrupting my sleep. Bah.
Aug. 20th, 2015 | 04:56 pm
Trying to figure out how I'll bring the wasabi & soy sauce to work for lunch tomorrow. And can't forget chopsticks or I'll be kinda screwed.
Aug. 12th, 2015 | 03:20 pm
I think next time rather than just roses I will go full-on Dutch still life with the exteriors. Something like a Jan van Huysum:
I'm feeling some money tightness lately, and dreading visiting the States due to the cost. I wish money wasn't a thing.