October 6th, 2015

Visiting home

I'm finally going back to Chicago for a visit. My flight is scheduled for Sunday morning, but due to circumstances beyond my control I have no idea if I'll be on it.

Three weeks ago I learned that I needed to renew my passport prior to my trip. It was a complete shock and hit me like a ton of bricks – I had not been aware that a US passport is considered invalid 90 days prior to its expiration date.

So I sent my documents off immediately to start the renewal process, which takes exactly three weeks. So there is a chance that I may get my passport back in time, and there is a chance that I may not. I don't know. I don't have a tracking number and no one answers the phone at the US consolate, it's just a long loop of fuck you. All I can do is hope is that I receive my new passport with enough of a window of time to make my flight.

And if not, I thankfully had the foresight to purchase flight insurance when I bought the ticket, which will – I hope – help to buffer the costs and BS of needing to move my flight to another day.

Normally I would be happy and excited to be going on a big trip, but at this point I just feel stressed and worried. I try to stay positive but it's not easy, especially given the frustrating conversations I've been having with my mother over Skype. I wonder to myself, how am I going to get through this? Deep emersion within the dysfunctional.