In recent weeks I've been struggling with intense anger that's been bubbling up out of nowhere. Anger has never been an issue for me before so it's really strange, and I wonder why it's happening now. It's not even anger over daily events, it's anger directed at my parents, people from my past – ex-boyfriends and such – people that have no bearing on my daily life. I need to find some way to defuse these emotions because it's so completely unhelpful. I keep telling myself I'll start meditating and maybe that will help, but then I forget to do so. In the past I would walk to and from work and think about positive things, things I was looking forward to, but now it's all just me yelling at people in my head.
The stress of 1,000 things in an ever-constant state of increase may be getting to me.
In other news, Pinterest. While it's all beautiful and perfect, it is also nauseating, dumbed-down and full-on interactive monoculture. I'm the worst kind of addict, always searching for that peek inspirational high but never quite finding it as I scroll and search and collect pins on my boards.