Alcippe (alcippe) wrote,

I should shut up

I held my face in ice water for 40 seconds this morning. woo hoo! I'm getting better at this.

I am bored with my job. I mean, I've been bored with it almost from day one, but so grateful to be earning a paycheck I didn't care. But I'm starting to really be bummed out by the feeling that my life is being spent this way, sitting in front of a computer doing the same boring things every day, leaving me with very little energy in the evenings to do anything for myself.

But I have no idea how else to support myself so I can keep making high-level fine art (read: expensive materials and lots of space required) and keep a roof over my head. Bah. I suppose there are worse fates, and I am aware that my current life as a non-struggling artist in Berlin is the dream of many, many people and the fact that I am actually here doing this oh my God I should just shut the fuck up.

I am hungry for lunch but can not eat for another hour. boo

  • Stormtroopers

    I feel I need to record this. The experience of walking to the späti (convenience store) in Berlin at night on Rigaer Straße. There are dozens of…

  • A superior machine

    I picked up my old Macbook from the Gravis store, it's lain broken for the better part of two years in an odd corner of my home, but now that I need…

  • It attacks you where you are weakest

    I don't think I can look at the news or social media any more for the next couple days, it's becoming unbearable. I feel so powerless to make any…

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded