Alcippe (alcippe) wrote,
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Closure

Didn't get the job. I already was beginning to fear the worst because it took them so long to get back to me.

I sent out some more job applications and then decided that I really needed a treat to make myself feel better, so I went and got a Thai massage from a little shop near me.

A little old Thai woman named Porn worked wonders on me, kneading and pressing out all the stress and despair of not getting the job I wanted out of my muscles. Talked to my friend Rose on the phone and she consoled me by saying she felt I could do better than that company, they would have been a bad fit for me anyway. Maybe she's right. Maybe there's something better out there.

Going to a UX Book Club Meetup tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to it, maybe I'll get to do a little networking, too. Gotta stay active and connected.

Last night I texted the guy and told him in final – albeit gentle – terms that we are over. He conceded. This is good, it gives us both closure. And I feel it was the right thing to do, rather than to try to gently untangle myself from him (which there would have been no end to). He was still texting and calling every day, not able to give me the space I deeply need. There was never going to be a gentle untangling, he's too emotionally attached. When given an inch he immediately grabs up 100 miles. So I opted for a clean break. I cried for a while after I sent the text, it wasn't an easy thing to do. But it was the right thing to do.
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